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Unrecognized Love: The Pain Of Loving Someone When It's One-Sided

Loving someone is one of the most vulnerable positions in which you can be. You open your heart to another person and your best wish is for him or her to love you in return.

Unfortunately, life is not a movie; love isn’t always reciprocated, and it doesn’t always end in a happily ever after like a happens in movie. But we have a hope of getting things done.

I had to learn this hard truth, and chances are, you’re reading this because you have, too.

Sometimes, love isn’t a feeling you force upon yourself; it just happens.

When you start to spend more time with another human being, you expose yourself to whom he or she is — all the eccentricity, past experiences, what makes him or her happy or sad, dreams and ambitions in life, flaws and the depths of his or her heart.

And you, in return, disclose your deepest secrets and desires. They know what it takes to make you laugh or feel special, and you build new memories together that make any suffering of the past that much easier to bear. It makes you feel hopeful, and before you know it, you’re in love.

It is an incredibly endangered position because to me, loving someone entails giving away parts of yourself you lock up from the rest of the world.

We all have stories to which we quietly hold tightly and when you are finally able to reveal this to another person, it is a true sign of trust and a whole new level of togetherness

Everything changes the moment you look at a person differently. You start to notice intricate details you didn’t before.

you realize how much you adore this person and what you would do to move mountains for him or her. Then, your heart starts to pound, fingers start to shake and it dawns on you that the next step won't be easy — the declaration.

This is the scariest part. You either free your soul and spill, or die in torment to salvage whatever relationship you have. If you know for sure that how you feel is mutual, there is absolutely no risk involved. Otherwise, it is an excruciating experience that might make you wish you were hit by a truck.

The part where he or she tells you he or she doesn’t feel the same way or can’t date you for whatever reasons or is not ready to be in a relationship can be painful to hear. But, the reason is irrelevant — it still f*cking sucks.

Rejection is not pretty. It hurts. It brings on an offensive of tears, heartache and self-loathing. This is the part where your shattered heart will start to ask questions like, “Why doesn’t he/she love me?” and your brain does this bullsh*t thing where it answers with, “I’m not good enough” or “I’m not loveable” or “I’m worthless.”

Then, you have to deal with the “giving each other space” thing so you can stay friends or “never see each other ever again” because it’s awkward. It’s almost like a breakup! Then, you mourn the person's absence and wonder if he or she thinks of you, too.

Then, you get even more depressed by the very thought of you being all emotional while he or she is probably off with someone better. Then, you wonder if he or she cares at all, even just a little bit. And then, you feel sorry for yourself.

After some time to grieve — weeks or maybe even months —, you might be able to wake up in the morning and breathe clearly again because it didn’t hurt so much.

You start doing the “I’m working on me” thing and it distracts you for a bit, but a song might come on the radio that reminds you of him or her, or someone asks you about that person, and the pain bleeds through the cracks of your trying-to-mend heart.

You want to call him or her just to see how he or she is, but maybe that’s too much. You have news to share with this person, like a new job or something interesting that happened, but maybe that’s too much, as well.

The worst thing that could happen is a relapse. And, you’re stuck with the feeling of “will this ever get better?”

You move on with your life, fearing you'll never open your heart that way again. You also fear no one will be able to steal your heart again.

Perhaps the sun will shine over the dark clouds one day and you will have your moments of hope and faith — hope that it will get better soon and faith that it will all make sense.

You didn’t understand because in your eyes, the two of you would have been an unstoppable force and an amazing love story. You wish that he or she could see the beautiful world through your lenses — a romance entangled with heated debates, bad fights

The truth is, he or she will never understand. He or she will never understand how happy you could have made him or her or how it feels to be loved by you. And that, in the end, is the saddest, most painful part of it all.

~ Satwik Kota

All this while I was thinking About this coronavirus (covid-19) but today we know the situation of the world Against Coronavirus I mean covid-19 ( novel corona virus 2019). This really creating panic in our minds, what to do? How to do and how to face the situation. these are three main questions arise in our minds, so I was thinking its time to share my knowledge Which I was gone to a searching of the data out my curiosity. As we know this covid-19 caused by severe acute respiratory syndrome coronavirus 2 (Sar S-CoV-2), previously known as 2019 novel coronavirus. As you know that it was first case found in Wuhan, china in DEC 2019 before spreading globally. We all know that the situation in world is out break. Like Italy and USA. And I don’t want share about this which create more panic. Coming to our country (India) the situation reached to second stage. Which our honourable minister Sri Narendra Modi sir announcedcountry locks down for 21 days. What’s the reason behind this decision?? So dear human according to recent report by centers of decease control and prevention (CDC) more than 97 percent of people who contract covid-19 shows symptoms within 14 days after the person affected. In this incubation period even the person who contract covid-19 shows symptoms normal. Even technical stuff can’t identify the person. In between the person may meet people around him and may have parties. So the people who met are infected with covid-19 and even this people also meet another people. This is like a chain. This is the main reason behind the 21 days country lock down. So if people stay at home and will help to break the chain. Till now there are 716 case and 14 deaths. So number won’t stop if we won’t cooperate with our government. So Dear human covid-19 is not a easy or joking thing to making memes and trolls on it. So Please stay at home spend time with you family or learn something new there are many new things to learn. World is full of opportunities so my dear teenagers grab you opportunities. And advance your skill. We got perfect time to improve or advance our self.

So human please try to cooperate with our police men and doctors they are working 24/7 for our life’s. So human please be cooperative. You people may think why this fellow is giving lectures and all. I am not great I’m also a normal human like you. So we promise that from this time until April 14th we stay at home and spend time with our family avoid public gatherings. And being a youth of the country we are responsible for our welfare of our nation. BHARATH MATA KI JAI !!

~ Satwik Kota