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As a 15-16 year old, it never occurred to me that pain can also be mental, so everything I went through was so painful yet painless. The only thing I shared everything with was a piece of paper, my words screamed the highest of the frequencies every fucking day yet no one was there to help. So once I came across this famous quotation from a bestselling novel "Fault in our stars" which says "That's the thing about pain, it demands to be felt". The first thought I had was of my pain and that I had none to hear me out, so I thought that I can't see the pain so I don't have the pain it's kinda funny now but that is also the reason I wrote death notes back then. Later on I started hurting myself, cutting my wrists in order to feel the pain physically which I carried like weights on my shoulders every day of my life. Not even once I had a thought that my soul was bleeding and I ran out of bandages. We humans carry this attitude to fix things without even facing them. All it takes is to speak to someone but we are so busy judging everyone even if someone comes with a real problem all we can think of is that person does so much drama or in other words "attention seeking”, but the real thing is everyone is so self absorbed that they can't see through other people. Why is that it always has to be about us and not them. For once can it be about them and not you, I know helping doesn't give you anything but it'll sure as hell put you to bed peacefully.